October 1st already? I recently went to Costco to smile at my fake boyfriend( that’s a whole other blog and some serious therapy we will get into later) and saw Halloween decorations next to Christmas decorations. I was upset, it was still September. But, it isn’t my call, I can just ignore it. And I did.
Okay, here we go, As I look back on my blogs and my goals and I am still a long way from my goal, I feel bad. I should be done by now, I should be wearing leather pants and crop tops and my arm fat, my wings as I call them, should be curtailed. I gave myself a brisk shake (figuratively because shaking myself would be weird) and wrote a new goal, a doable goal. I have three months until I get on a plane and go see my son and his family for our Christmas. We have started a tradition having Christmas on New Years Day. Mainly because we are a blended family and there are several grandparents and because it is less stress for sure. It worked out great last year, so this will be our second time and I am flying this time. That drive to San Jose was exhausting and its $100 round trip, so Amazon the gifts to their house, 40 minute plane ride and there you go! I want to be more comfortable in that plane seat, I want to run with those grandsons of mine in the park and throw a ball to them. So here are the goals, stay within my daily WW points, exercise each day, drink water, and no sneaky snacks. Well, that sounds easy. I wrote it down, so it will happen. WRONG! I have to make it happen. I looked in the mirror this morning and thought, gee when did I get all those wrinkles around my mouth, and eyes? Im still in my 40’s right? I feel like I am, until I am pushing a cart full of packages at my second job around and its 100 degrees in that warehouse and I think daang I should be sitting at home watching Netflix. But, you know what,? I am getting stronger at that job, every muscle hurts when I get home, but the next day, I am okay, I can get out of bed and moving so that’s progress and I think I felt a muscle in my calves, like a cyclist. Yeah me!
As the holidays approach, I find myself being a little sad, my family is spread out in different states and cities and I feel disconnected from them, so trying to get some Face Time in with them, but I think about it when I am driving and that wouldn’t work . You think texting and driving is dangerous, video and driving would be crazy. How would that conversation go with the police. Oh Officer I just missed my family and I don’t have much free time, so I am Face Timing while I drive, is that wrong? LOL!
Well I am going to take this next three months day by day, but with more determination because only I can fix this, nobody else is responsible, just me. And sometimes, that is hard to accept, but I do and I own it and I will get through it, because for the first time, I believe in myself and I like myself better than I have in years and that is a good start.
October means, cooler temperatures, hot tea and veggie soup in the crock pot and football! This October it means exercise and healthy life too! So hide those mini candies! They may be one point, but they are like potato chips you cant eat just one.
See you in November!